Oh boy, oh boy, my very own blog. I need to investigate all that is blogland and have some fun. This is my first time so I guess you might say, I am breaking my virginity, well some how.
The reason I am blogging is beacause on the weekend I had a girls night in. Now to most of you out there this is not an unusual thing, happens all the time right. Sure it does. But Saturday night was different. I got to spend time with two people, one I have not seen in nine years and the other I have not seen for perhaps a year. These two people are my friends, eventhough I don't do friends, much to the heart ache of my children. The real thing however is that these two gals are my friends, and you know what I never really took the time to embrace that friendship.
Gal number one - megsie - what a lovely lady, and for the first time I saw her, no I mean really saw her. For reasons I cannot explain for I do not know Megsie opened herself in a way I have never seen. You see this lady is just that, a lady. Always hair done, makeup on, beautiful nails, great figure, pretty, nice family and home, good little job. Megsie has not got a bad word to say about anyone, she always sees the good in things, and holds her cards very close to her heart. She supports her friends in times of need and puts herself aside.
The volcano erupted on Saturday night. I saw Megsie in the raw, not nude, in the raw. Raw emotion, something I had never witnessed before and my heart cried a tear.
You might just think this is some boring blog but sometimes when people we know are consistant in their day to day dealings you are stunned when you find out that indeed they do bleed.
Now gal number two - haven't seen this one for nine years and I must say she is just the same great person. She is vibrant, confident, loud to boot and you always know where you stand with Nevina.
I have followed her blog and have also ventured into Cats as well. I is really ironic how you do really get to know people through writing. Nevina has been through so much and when we got together I was no surprise that she was a very bitter lady. I must say she is however, strong as an ox. Most of us would just crumble under the sheer presure without the infidelity. Not this gal.
As the night progressed the three of us exchanged some stuff and I felt like I did in fact have two great friends. You see as much as Nevina has no trust in her marriage, so to do I find trust an extremely hard thing to grab and be confident with. Hence "I don't do friends" thing that I have.
You know the old saying, "What happens on tour stays on tour" so too does girls nights in. I mean apart from the fact that we all got smashed and swore like trukers, we did however share stuff, and for me that was great.
I returned home to my family, had great sex with my loving husband and to his delight and mine said I should go out (in) with the girls more often.
I love friends, especially now that I have allowed myself to have them.
Trust and Courage.